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Talent is more likely to feel like a curse that most people expect. The system is set to mediate... Ian trailed off and stopped before he started on the social dynamic systems.

What more do you think I want?

I'm too afraid to pass it on. I got lucky with you, but what if we have a child that isn't so lucky?

I don't know what else you want, you'll tell me, won't you?

Any child we might have would never be on the run and would always have its mother to look out for it. There are other people out there who are accepting. You do have friends other than me.

Ian came over with the tea and set it down nearby. The only thing I want right now.. uh.. one I have and the other is not possible.

I know I have friends... I think I'm worried too much, and they keep bringing the subject up so I have to think of it.

What isn't possible? She looked up at him, concerned.

It's natural for people to ask about children right before you get married. I've heard it every time.

Ian shook his head but smiled, sadly. It was the kind of smile someone might have if they were fondly remembering a dead relative of friend. It had a mix of happiness and hopeless sadness.

I don't want to talk about it.

I understand. She went to hug him

Ian gave her a hug. Don't worry about it.

She didn't let go of him.

Ian just holds her because he knows she needs it.

I love you. She whispered.

I love you too. Ian pulled back a little to look at her though the thoughts on his mind were still depressing him.

What did you want to talk about?

Um...

I'm ahead in planning, and, um.

If you want, we can move the wedding date up. Would you want?

Move it up how far?

Before Christmas? She sounded unsure.

Right after the New Year? Ian wasn't sure about trying to cram everything in. The beginning of December is final exams and final papers. I won't have time.

When would you have time?

I could request Spring semester off.

It would take that long? What if we do the honeymoon over the summer?

Spring semester would be nice, though.

We could have the wedding in mid-January and take some time for a honeymoon.

I thought you didn't want to wait until Summer? Ian was confused.

I meant we could get married and take the honeymoon later.

Why don't you pick a day in January so we can send out invitations.

The first Saturday in January.

Ian looked thoughtful. The day after New Year's? Uh.. any reason you want to move it up so far?

Yes. I mean, there's no reason, but that's the right date.

You always have a reason.