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Ten reasons to give up

1)Giovan
2)The timeline
3)I'm alone
4)I don't think I can stop drinking
5)I'm messing things up for Janie
6)I've messed them up for everyone else
7)Did I mention the entire mess with Giovan?
8)I'll never have anyone
9)I've quit my job and have no direction anymore
10)The only way I can stop creating problems is to no longer exist.

Ten reasons to keep going

1)I can't change my immortality

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*Finds the paper with the 'keep going' list, and finishes it off for her*

2) You can't change that you're meant to be a part of the universe. Whatever you believe.
~~3) Me.~~
3) The people who care for you.
4) The people you've helped, the missions you've successfully run that made a difference.
6) The countless sunrises over countless horizons.
7) Pangia ice cream on top of the Lumaine falls.
8) The people you've yet to help. The friends you haven't yet made, your unborn children - five hundred thousand, thousand years from now. Who knows?.
9) Every sudden change, every twist and turn of time, every fear and joy and sheer exhilaration that the cosmos flings at us. Those that none of us can control, everything that tells you you're alive.
10) Every time you smile, and realise you're feeling it.

I hadn't meant for anyone to see my list.

There's not really anything- Thanks for trying.

Didn't I mention I'm a nosy bastard? Not that you could call that a list.

Keep mine. A year from now you might find at least one thing you agree with.

There was another one. *she looks relieved that he didn't find it*

Keep it? It's too easy to lose papers and such, you know that.

*He looks curious, but decides not to ask*

Then I'll keep it. Anyway, I might want to add stuff....

Reasons to give up- but it's a pointless list since I'm here forever.

I think you've covered about everything in your list...

You wanna talk to Maeridia about that. She quit and sat in a cave for two hundred years.

Uhh.. *Mutters something about matching socks. Which is a small thing, but a beautiful one*

A cave? Sounds like it was a nice break... *can't be considering that, can she?*

The sandals weren't that bad. *yep, still has them, but mentioning matching socks brings the smallest of smiles to her face*

In all fairness, it's a very nice cave.

In November? *Phoenix's eyes twinkle a bit, as he takes the list and adds 11) New shoes. And 12) Ducklings.*

Staying for 200 years, I'd imagine so. It's not a bad idea.

*she watches him* Ducklings?

I'll show you once we get back.

Mmmh-Yeahhh. Just a personal favourite. *And. For Janie, and Janie ONLY, he summons one. Lo and behold the tiny, adorable fuzzy little duckling in the palm of his hand*

You tell anyone about this? I'll hunt you down and kill you.

Thank you.

*The duckling is just too cute, and Janie's demeanor changes. Now she's oohing and awwing, talking in a tiny voice to the duckling in Phoenix's hand. She even pets it gently once or twice*

*Is that a big dorky grin on the dark angel's face? So much for the rep*

Go on.. *He attempts to tip the little thing onto Janie's palm. The urge to start cooing at it is almost unbearable* Hold him, he's far too young to be scared of.. well. Anything much.

*it's okay. Janie is now holding the duckling in her palm, cooing and absolutely in love with the tiny creature*

He's so cute...

*Thus far, Janie has a smile on her face, and the prospect of a tranquil and beautiful retreat should she need it. Phoenix seems to be doing okay*

Just a tiny little bit of what's really quite a beautiful universe. *D'awwwww. No. He's NOT gonna start ...*

It's hard to see things like this when your sole focus is on rescuing and killing.

*But she's still talking in a little voice for the duck,and yes, Phoenix gets those rare smiles from her*

That's why you gotta step back and take a fresh look once in a while.

*He grins back at her, delighted to see that smile, whilst the duckling settles in Janie's hand and fluffs its ridiculous little wings*

I can't say I don't have the time.

*oohing and aahing at the cuteness of the dig fluffing his wings, and acting likes he's right at home*

Yeah.. well. One baby critter's not gonna make it all better... but there's a time to throw yourself into your work, or whatever, and there's a time to rediscover what you're working for.

He... really likes you. *Cue idiot grin again*

You're saying this is the latter?

When I was younger, I loved animals. *dawww, the duckling is distracting her from anything that will make her distracted*

*He grins* I'm not saying you're championing the cause of ducklings or anything. But kind of. Yeah.

*Phoenix plants a kiss on Janie's temple, not minding the distraction from being distracted.. that's the whole point, that Janie loses herself completely in something else, even if only for a few minutes*

*theres that smile again! Somehow there's no awkwardness, and even a hug with her free arm*

*Phoenix is inwardly delighted, though he's playing it cool. Not being sure how Janie would react to a worm.. considering the tentacle thing... Phoenix summons a lump of soft bread, giving it to Janie to feed the little guy*

There you go.. spoil him rotten for a bit.

*Of course itty bitty is gonna have to go back to where he came from after a while*

*and she feeds him! Baby animals should go on the list of 'things that make Janie happy'*

Just for a bit... He must miss his mommy. *she doesn't want him to go back*

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