Why do these eyes of mine cry? (rp for sees_everything)

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When Janie got home, she was crying.

Not that anyone had known she left, but right now, the front door was slammed and her sobs were audible.  Cabinet doors were thrown shut and something- something was upsetting the time traveler.

"Mommy?"  asked Lynn, obviously concerned.  Janie looked at the little girl, and turned away, more tears coming as she ran to her room.  The door was closed, and locked, and she sat on the bed.

Thoughts raced around in her head until she couldn't take it anymore.  Janie lowered herself onto her pillow and cried into it, waiting for something to happen that would make her feel better.

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"Hey ... hon? What's wrong?" Xander had been taking a shower, and when he emerged into the bedroom, Janie was face-down and crying.

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Xander. She loved him so much and now- he wanted to help and she knew that. So she said something between sobs and into the pillow.

"Mi fhs oo" is what it sounded like.

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"Mi fhs oo?" Xander echoed, as closely as he could, settling beside her on the bed.

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Janie wasn't exactly laying on her stomach, so it took a few moments for her to turn and face her Xander. Her eyes and face were as red as he could ever see, the cheeks with tears. She'd been at it for a while.

"I love you." and that phrase, for that moment, was the most tragic in the world.

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"I love you, too," Xander said, and hugged her. "What's wrong?"

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The digital clock on the nightstand began rapidly changing and she looked at Xander, being strong and not bursting into tears again.

"I chose you, a normal guy that loves comic books and Xena posters."

Scratch that about being strong. It was tragic, and required her to snuggle into him.

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Xander eyed the clock doubtfuly, but snuggled back. "Yeah, you did. And I'm pretty gosh darned lucky."

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"And you're not a jerk." she added, sniffling "I don't deserve you."

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"You totally deserve me," Xander said. "I just don't know if I deserve you."

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That made her cry again, and shake her head no.

"You deserve better, someone from your time who isn't a tart but if you leave me I swear I'm going to live in a cave."

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"NeanderJanie? No, that's okay. I think I'll stick around."

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"You're the only one that hasn't treated me like crap." Janie revealed "And you make me happy."

None of this was new information, but Janie may have been talking more to herself than to Xander.

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"Well, I'm glad. You've made me happy, too. And you've given me a ... slightly insane, but no more so than us ... daughter, so ... that's pretty darn cool."

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That was another, a mild tragedy. "She's mad over the fight with Phoenix... he's her, uh, Uncle."

More sniffles.

"We made up today" And, cue more tears.

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" ... and this is a bad thing, because he's still kind of an evil douchebag, maybe?"

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"He's not evil!"

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"Are you sure about that? Because he's really not very nice to you."

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"That's the first time he's ever done anything like that!"

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"And is it going to be the last?"

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Janie wanted to say it would be, she really did. "Don't hate him too much, please. I really need you two to be civil"

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"Sorry, I get a teeny bit irate when someone beats the crap out of my fiance."

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"...I beat him up."

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"You beat each other up."

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"No, he just... sometimes words hurt more than physical violence. That's why I was crying the other day after the fight with him."

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"Well, you know ... maybe if he's saying things like that, he's not as much of a friend as you think he is."

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"I know why said them, and we had a nice, long talk about it. I know you might not like him but it's important to me you at least try to get along.

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"I'll try, but he has to try to not hurt you for me to feel comfortable, you know?"

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"I know. I love you, Xander. I love everything about you."

She slipped her hands under his robe, trying to distract both of them from her current problems.

"Let's get married sooner than a year? Please."

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"You know ... what you're doing makes what you're saying a little hard to refuse." Xander laughed. "Okay. Whenever you like."

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"I know." She smiled, and kept on doing what she was doing. "You're making me feel a lot better. Tonight, just you and me, and... love."

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"Good plan."