Janie. You are one of the smartest people I know. And aside from that, not even the smartest person in the universe could influence all the parameters of a relationship alone. I understand why all of the bad luck you've had would make you weary, but ... if you stop trying, you'll never know if it could be different.
[Julian adjust his pace, at least this makes it easier for him to remember the right steps.]
Oh, I'd love to do that. I never minded much doing such things alone, but that was before we started traveling together. It's all ... all so much better with you.
It's not you! It's- you have been one of my best friends, almost ever since we met, and you're my second favorite drinking partner. I can call you, and we can hang out without any baggage. You and I have taken trips together and been through so much.
And I can't mess that up. If I do, then what do I have left? So I'm confused and want a drink before dancing more, but at the same time I don't want to stop because I feel safe and comfortable.
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Date: 2012-11-05 07:09 am (UTC)It is a great time... But we're on a world somewhere. Do you want to leave soon?
I don't want to be alone at all, but... [Janie frowns, trailing off and getting lost in her thoughts]
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Date: 2012-11-05 09:24 am (UTC)No, I don't want to leave yet. It's nice. There's ... real sunlight.
[He's quiet for a moment.]
... but?
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Date: 2012-11-06 11:37 am (UTC)[Janie stumbles a bit, because sand and high heels don't mix at all]
I mess up every relationship that I've ever been in.
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Date: 2012-11-06 12:04 pm (UTC)[Julian tries to hold her steady and slows down, realizing the sand isn't only a problem for him.]
What makes you think you're the one messing up?
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Date: 2012-11-07 02:21 am (UTC)[After a moment Janie stops dancing, and separates from Julian so that she can remove her shoes]
Do you really think my taste is that bad?
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Date: 2012-11-07 09:02 am (UTC)Well, no, but I don't see why it should all be your fault.
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Date: 2012-11-07 03:21 pm (UTC)It isn't all my fault, but I feel like my luck would be better if I was smarter
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Date: 2012-11-07 03:38 pm (UTC)Janie. You are one of the smartest people I know. And aside from that, not even the smartest person in the universe could influence all the parameters of a relationship alone. I understand why all of the bad luck you've had would make you weary, but ... if you stop trying, you'll never know if it could be different.
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Date: 2012-11-09 07:23 am (UTC)...Thank you. [She's silent for a moment] I um, really. I think we should dance again.
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Date: 2012-11-09 09:25 am (UTC)[For some reason he feels a bit embarrassed and hurries to get back into dance position.] Uhm. Yes. Let's dance.
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Date: 2012-11-10 09:07 am (UTC)[Janie fumbles a bit, but eventually will try leading Julian in a dance.]
Do you, uh. How's New York?
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Date: 2012-11-10 04:40 pm (UTC)[He grins a bit and tries to follow Janie's lead the best he can.]
It's ... still the same? Now that I think about it, I've spent much of my time elsewhere, actually.
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Date: 2012-11-10 04:58 pm (UTC)[She's dancing slow, and seems to be concentrating on the conversation.]
Do you like being away? I like having you around.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:02 pm (UTC)[His attention is split between dancing and talking, which means he'll make a mistake or two.]
Thank you. I do, I like exploring new things, making experiences, or, uh, mistakes. But with friends, it's always best. I'm ... it's nice with you.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:18 pm (UTC)[Janie slows down even more]
I like exploring too... I can't seem to stay still for too long. It's nice with you too. We can go anywhere, whenever we want.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:47 pm (UTC)[Julian adjust his pace, at least this makes it easier for him to remember the right steps.]
Oh, I'd love to do that. I never minded much doing such things alone, but that was before we started traveling together. It's all ... all so much better with you.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:54 pm (UTC)[Janie looks lost in thought for a moment]
I'm glad I can help make things better for you.
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Date: 2012-11-10 07:26 pm (UTC)[He looks somewhat confused, wondering why he can't seem to find the proper words.]
You do, you have no idea how much.
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Date: 2012-11-10 07:57 pm (UTC)What's wrong, Julian? Are you alright?
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Date: 2012-11-10 09:16 pm (UTC)[He looks at Janie.]
Would you like to stop?
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Date: 2012-11-11 09:57 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-11-11 03:04 pm (UTC)[Now he's confused, too.]
Uhm, are you alright?
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Date: 2012-11-11 11:36 pm (UTC)And I can't mess that up. If I do, then what do I have left? So I'm confused and want a drink before dancing more, but at the same time I don't want to stop because I feel safe and comfortable.
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