[Julian takes a little longer than he normally would for such an ordinary task as getting dressed, but then he finally returns, wearing decent black pants and a white shirt. When he sees Janie dancing, he smiles and walks over to her.]
I go shopping, I build things... and I read. I um... do anything I can so I'm not too bored. Everyone but me seems to have better things to do, and that's good because I set it up that way. I wish I had left something for myself is all.
[This makes him go quiet for a moment. Still looking for words, he steps forward and gently places his hand on Janie's shoulder for the initial dance position. Finally, he speaks again, in a low voice.]
It's... well, it's a nice break from war, and saving the world, but my kids are grown now and Phoenix is. Um. Well, when we were younger we always talked about adventure and there's none of that. I've put people in charge at work, and I made sure that certain people are as happy as possible... I want you to be happy too, so if I can do anything.
I want some kind of purpose again, and. Okay, Aunt Sara said that if I want something in life that I have to go for it. So I'm looking for projects and adventures, I suppose this is one, but there's something else and I'm so scared about it because I have such bad luck. Maybe I should be alone forever.
[He does the according steps, for now ignoring the sand that's quickly collecting in his shoes.]
I don't know if this can give a purpose, or if anything can for people like us, but oh yes, it is an adventure. Let's make it a great one.
And … you know better than anyone that forever is a long, long time. No one should spend all of it alone, not unless you really, really want it. But I don't think you do, am I right?
Janie. You are one of the smartest people I know. And aside from that, not even the smartest person in the universe could influence all the parameters of a relationship alone. I understand why all of the bad luck you've had would make you weary, but ... if you stop trying, you'll never know if it could be different.
[Julian adjust his pace, at least this makes it easier for him to remember the right steps.]
Oh, I'd love to do that. I never minded much doing such things alone, but that was before we started traveling together. It's all ... all so much better with you.
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Date: 2012-11-02 10:40 pm (UTC)[He's already hurrying towards the boat, not sure why this is suddenly so important to him, but it is.]
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Date: 2012-11-02 10:58 pm (UTC)I already think you look nice.
[She waits for him, dancing a bit and discovering her dancing shoes don't work too well in sand]
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Date: 2012-11-02 11:07 pm (UTC)Your closet is amazing.
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Date: 2012-11-02 11:15 pm (UTC)You look great... I, um. Get bored. I get bored a lot, actually.
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Date: 2012-11-02 11:30 pm (UTC)These actually fit. You're going shopping for odd things when you're bored.
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Date: 2012-11-03 12:05 am (UTC)Which better things? What would you like to have?
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Date: 2012-11-03 12:17 am (UTC)It's... well, it's a nice break from war, and saving the world, but my kids are grown now and Phoenix is. Um. Well, when we were younger we always talked about adventure and there's none of that. I've put people in charge at work, and I made sure that certain people are as happy as possible... I want you to be happy too, so if I can do anything.
I want some kind of purpose again, and. Okay, Aunt Sara said that if I want something in life that I have to go for it. So I'm looking for projects and adventures, I suppose this is one, but there's something else and I'm so scared about it because I have such bad luck. Maybe I should be alone forever.
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Date: 2012-11-03 12:52 am (UTC)I don't know if this can give a purpose, or if anything can for people like us, but oh yes, it is an adventure. Let's make it a great one.
And … you know better than anyone that forever is a long, long time. No one should spend all of it alone, not unless you really, really want it. But I don't think you do, am I right?
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Date: 2012-11-05 07:09 am (UTC)It is a great time... But we're on a world somewhere. Do you want to leave soon?
I don't want to be alone at all, but... [Janie frowns, trailing off and getting lost in her thoughts]
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Date: 2012-11-05 09:24 am (UTC)No, I don't want to leave yet. It's nice. There's ... real sunlight.
[He's quiet for a moment.]
... but?
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Date: 2012-11-06 11:37 am (UTC)[Janie stumbles a bit, because sand and high heels don't mix at all]
I mess up every relationship that I've ever been in.
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Date: 2012-11-06 12:04 pm (UTC)[Julian tries to hold her steady and slows down, realizing the sand isn't only a problem for him.]
What makes you think you're the one messing up?
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Date: 2012-11-07 02:21 am (UTC)[After a moment Janie stops dancing, and separates from Julian so that she can remove her shoes]
Do you really think my taste is that bad?
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Date: 2012-11-07 09:02 am (UTC)Well, no, but I don't see why it should all be your fault.
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Date: 2012-11-07 03:21 pm (UTC)It isn't all my fault, but I feel like my luck would be better if I was smarter
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Date: 2012-11-07 03:38 pm (UTC)Janie. You are one of the smartest people I know. And aside from that, not even the smartest person in the universe could influence all the parameters of a relationship alone. I understand why all of the bad luck you've had would make you weary, but ... if you stop trying, you'll never know if it could be different.
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Date: 2012-11-09 07:23 am (UTC)...Thank you. [She's silent for a moment] I um, really. I think we should dance again.
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Date: 2012-11-09 09:25 am (UTC)[For some reason he feels a bit embarrassed and hurries to get back into dance position.] Uhm. Yes. Let's dance.
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Date: 2012-11-10 09:07 am (UTC)[Janie fumbles a bit, but eventually will try leading Julian in a dance.]
Do you, uh. How's New York?
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Date: 2012-11-10 04:40 pm (UTC)[He grins a bit and tries to follow Janie's lead the best he can.]
It's ... still the same? Now that I think about it, I've spent much of my time elsewhere, actually.
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Date: 2012-11-10 04:58 pm (UTC)[She's dancing slow, and seems to be concentrating on the conversation.]
Do you like being away? I like having you around.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:02 pm (UTC)[His attention is split between dancing and talking, which means he'll make a mistake or two.]
Thank you. I do, I like exploring new things, making experiences, or, uh, mistakes. But with friends, it's always best. I'm ... it's nice with you.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:18 pm (UTC)[Janie slows down even more]
I like exploring too... I can't seem to stay still for too long. It's nice with you too. We can go anywhere, whenever we want.
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Date: 2012-11-10 06:47 pm (UTC)[Julian adjust his pace, at least this makes it easier for him to remember the right steps.]
Oh, I'd love to do that. I never minded much doing such things alone, but that was before we started traveling together. It's all ... all so much better with you.
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